When You’re Surrounded By Your Darkest Thoughts

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By Mia

Originally Published on readunwritten.com

This is the introductory poem for a novel I wrote entitled As I Live Dying. The story is centered around a young twenty something who is on her own for the first time and trying to live her life after years of complacency and depression. Her journey brings her full circle, starting with the darkest part of her life, which is when this poem was written.

This is my dark place

This is where the thoughts rest

This is where I contemplate

All the deepest secrets

Come into this world and you will see

What could happen to you if

You happened to be me

Chanting this is my dark place

How I wish it weren’t true

That the lightest for me

Was the darkest for you

This dark place consumes me

It’s all I can see

If only I could just breathe

Then maybe I could – no

Because I won’t let myself

This is what I deserve

What else have I earned?

My dark place is a reward

That only the first in last place should receive

This is all I achieved

Ask and you shall receive